I pull into the Wendy's parking lot, make almost a full circuit before I see an empty spot and pull in. I'm a little late, but it's fine. At least I'm here.
I walk in and scan the restaurant, all plastic and shiny and smelling like crispiness and sugar. I see her at a booth and head over.
"Hey!" she says, getting up to hug me.
"No, don't get up," I say, smiling distractedly. "Er, well yeah, get up." I laugh as I pull out my phone. "We need to order, I guess."
We get in line and she starts asking me about my day. I deflect mostly, just trying to get to the cashier.
"TFor here," I say. "Lemme get a 10-piece with sweet and sour and a water."
I text as we take our food back to our booth. I'm not trying to be rude, this text is just about work.
We sit down.
"So," she says, smiling. "How--"
"Aren't you gonna eat?" I ask, nodding at her burger. I can't point because I'm holding chicken nuggets in both hands.
"Yeah..." She picks up the Junior Bacon Cheeseburger. "So--"
"One sec." Another text, but it's work again, so it's not a legitimate diss. It's just--sorry. "Okay." I set my phone down with an air of finality. "I actually only have like five minutes before I need to head out, but what's up with you? Oh, but lemme tell you about what happened yesterday. You seriously would not believe..."
Between bites of whole nuggets, I fill her in on my day, ending with a modest request for her to drop off some milk at my place later. I want to make the really good hot chocolate.
"So this was fun!" I say, raking my trash onto the tray and standing up. "Dinner tomorrow, same time and place?"
She smiles, looking a little sad, which is ridiculous because I just offered her my time again for tomorrow.
"Yeah," she says. "Tomorrow. Maybe I can call you later toni--"
"Gosh, I don't know," I say. I speak over my shoulder as I dump my wrappers and containers into the trash. "Tonight's kind of busy. How about I just see you tomorrow? Okay? Great."
In Jesus' name,
I would never treat my friends this way. So why do I treat God this way?
Feeling convicted this morning.